welp…its not easy
okay so i just wrote a blog yesterday (monday) about how im ready to get back on track and im gonna stock my fridge with good for me foods and all that good stuff….now here i sit… 1:30 am Tuesday night/Wednesday morning….with a full belly because i overindulged….okay so i made chili last night and tried to make it healthier by not having so much meat in it or noodles….i did this and ate 2 huge bowls with crackers and cheese on it…wow…how ridiculous am i…and then this morning i finished it off before work and i also ate some rice snacks…then i went to work and brought home some italian wedding soup with turkey meatballs and a wrap with chicken, caesar dressing, parm cheese, and tomato….geesh…then that wasnt enough…so i ate tortilla chips with cheese melted on top and an apple and some olives and some more rice snacks and some almonds…omg!
when does this addiction stop?
welll…im just gonna let myself do what i do….and continue to write about it because i feel i get somewhere when i at least write about it and stop acting like it never happened…its a lot easier to pretend im fine than to write about how not fine i am hah.
ok…so i may not have the most inspiring blogs around but at least im getting out how i feel…whether its feeling shitty or accomplished or wonderful or whatever it may be….it may take me longer to get back into the swing of things than i thought…but if thats what it is then thats what it is…
oh…and tracey went home on the biggest loser tonight….i was quite happy about that…because she just got on my nerves and it wasnt because she played the game it was because she lied to people and won over their trust….if you know you are there to play the game then flat out say it but you dont need to betray peoples trust…and also…playing the game the way you did wasnt exactly the smartest because playing the game got you sent home whereas if you treated people the way youd wanna be treated you may have stayed longer,….duh….not rocket science lady!
ok im done with that….but i was shocked at how much more weight she lost at home…she looked amazing!
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Writing it down is great! Atleast you’re not in denial about it. That’s the worst thing you could do. You are aware of the addiction and you are planning on getting back on the wagon - sometimes it takes tome to get there, but I know you can do it.
You could have warned me that there was a spoiler in the blog haha I am back in the UK, so I have to watch The Biggest Loser a day or so late! Although, I am glad Tracy went home, I can’t stand her! I’m looking forward to watching it even more now I know the ending haha =oP
A very honest post. I have the same problem and it is nice to know I am not the only one. The hardest thing is getting out of the rut! Best wishes for the coming week x
omg im so sorry about the spoiler i didnt even think about it….=[
Haha no worries - looking forward to seeing her getting thrown off! YAY!
