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welp the title says it all…thats what i ate last night for dinner…it had to have put at least one pound on me…eeek!

i sauteed garlic in butter with some red chili flakes….then i threw in probably 3 cups of cooked thin spaghetti and tossed it all together and poured it into my favorite bowl and i buttered some dinner rolls threw em in the oven and then buttered em some more when they came outta the oven…wow….i probably ate 1/2 stick of butter all by myself…omg!

then if that wasnt enough i made rice krispie treats…now i did not overindulge in those because if you know me sweets arent my thing…i usually only eat one serving of those…but pasta is totally my thing so i almost always over indulge…oh well…its over now.

this morning i have had a tea with orange and raspberry syrup from work in it…but only 1 oz. so thats not terrible and i had 3/4 of a plain bagel with 1/2 of my cream cheese container…its real small….like 2 tbsp…..and a small rice krispie treat…i brought my lunch to work today so that i wouldnt be starving by the time i got home….its one of those fresh mixers from healthy choice with the pasta and marinara that you cook with a microwave…hopefully its tasty…its got 300 calories and 7 grams of dietary fiber which im a fan of…so i want to like it!

ive been stressed out with money again lately and wish i would  be able to get more hours at maui wowi…but i know dominos and maui wowi both will start picking up in the fall and will be slammed in the winter so maybe i should enjoy this time right now…but its hard when you have so much debt…ugh…what have i done to myself…o well…i saw a sign at a tire store yesterday that said…”once you realize youve dug yourself a hole..the first step is to stop digging” and it spoke to me when it comes to my debt….its like i keep using my credit card on little items and pretend that its nothing but it turns into something when you use it on little things 5 times a month ya know?   so ive decided to stop digging…so i can slowly get out of the hole…i know its gonna take me about 5 years…but im ok with that…and soon i need to decide what i want to go to school for….either realty, business, or food service management/culinary arts…i want to be a realtor badly but i dont want to get into a career that i wont be successful with…which is possible with the market how it is now….the practical thing would be business and thats what my mom thinks i should do….and then the culinary arts/food service management is what i ve wanted to do for soo long but i know the lifestyle i would live with that career and its not what i want….i want to be able to spend time with my family once i create one and with that you dont get much time……

ok…so soon im going to be back to counting calories, fat, saturated fat, and dietary fiber…and im going to get strict again and thats probably going to be when the biggest loser starts…because its my motivation…make fun of me .. criticize me…whatever…thats what gets me on track…its silly but it does!

welp i guess i should do some stuff at work even though theres a very limited amount of what needs to be done so im trying to hold off on it til the last hour so it will go really fast…blah…good day buddies!

welp…it is 9:45 am on Wednesday September 2.

I woke up this morning feeling kind of excited about life and even excited about coming to work today…it is weird how it is like that sometimes…but its like i can do the same things every day of my life….like wake up in the mornin and listen to my favorite radio station on my way to my maui wowi job and get to work and brew coffee and put little umbrellas into lids and take half of the straw wrapper off the straws and keep things clean and brew espresso and be nice to my customers and serve them proud and bla bla bla…some days i dread every second of it and some days i have such a wonderful outlook on my day…i dont know what it is that makes those days good though….o well…

welp this mornin before work i went to mcdonalds…great idea eh? i got a sausage mcgriddles with cheese 2 hashbrowns and a diet coke…has any one ever noticed that their diet coke is better than any other diet coke or is it just me? anyways….i ate every morsel…and now i feel sick and now my wonderful outlook on my day doesnt exist…dangit! its all mcdonalds fault!

also i counted my calories on it and it added up to 770 calories…omg!!!!!!!!! thats insane! some people eat breakfast from there everyday…770 calories in their first meal of the day everyday…thats nuts….

ok anyways…im making myself accountable again…even if im doing terrible im putting my calories up on here…welp…ill talk to yall later…i gotta work til 4…and im going to be soooo bored! the mall is dead lately….and we are located in the mall….so that means were dead!

ok…see yall!