arli

its been almost a month since ive last posted but it feels like a year…

i weighed in the other day at 247.9 so that made me feel a little bit better about things…but i have not been healthy at all…ive not been eating my fruits and veggies and have resorted back to eating out and eating pre made freezer food…i have taken alll of that hard work and reversed it…luckily i did not gain in the process but i have lost some of the habits that i gained in this process and i am deeply disappointed in my self…and no matter how many times i get on here and tell yall that im ready to be a loyal buddyslimmer and an obese girl who is going to change her life around…it never seems to work out that way and so im just not going to say that anymore.

im just going to live my life the best way i can…and blah

ya right even that statement was a lie because the best i can do is eat healthy and exercise and who knows when my ass is going to get back into gear and do that.

i did see the biggest loser preview the other night and i got extremely excited…i would really like to get back on track when the biggest loser starts because it motivates me weekly to stop being lazy and get active…i am pretty sure that i will definitely get back to it by the time it starts…yay

also the other day i went to a bridal shower with my mom and grandma and my grandma asked me if i lost weight and i said yes and she said how much and i said a little over 20 and she said “well i thought it was at least 20″ so i was excited about that…yay for people noticing…thats always my favorite thing about losing weight is seeing my family after i havent seen them for a few months and they tell me i look good…cool

ok…well i also have a wedding to go to in october and i have a goal to lose another 8 pounds by then…so hopefully that will get me going to have a goal like that!

OH YA I FORGOT TO TELL YOU!

When i started this journey i was wearing a size 24 jeans and the other day i bought 2 new pairs of a size 20 jean!!!!! i was so happy it was ridiculous!

okeedoke…so i got everything out that i wanted to get out…im at work right now bored to death…but i guess ill get back to work and be productive now!

oh and my fruit flies are gone after way too long…but oh well they r gone and thats what matters…!

and i cant wait for fall because it is my favorite time of the year and it makes me realllly happy….the other day we had a glimpse of fall and i was so happy…i opened all the windows and i got some candles with fall scents…like pumpkin spice and mulled cider…and my house felt breezy and fresh and yay!!!!!

i dont like summer….i like fall and winter…im strange but oh well…i dont like heat and humidity and i prefer cloudy breezy warmish cool days….awww…fallll

hey buddies…its been ahwile since i have written a blog or visited other blogs…ive been a little depressed with myself…and my house has been infected with fruit flies and my laundry was like a month old…..ive eaten nothing but fast food lately…work has been extremely frustrating….and ive been too lazy to go to the gym for over 2 or 3 weeks now…something like that…

so…where do i begin? okay lets talk fruit flies….okay…seriously…i hope none of you buddies have ever had to go through a fruit fly infestation in your home because you were too damn lazy to take your trash out or do your dishes or whatever….omg!!! it is so ridiculous how annoying this has been!

okay…i wuld guess i have over 2000 fruit flies in my house….it started about 2 weeks ago…but i thought i had gotten em all to pretty much go away….i had left some fruit fly traps in my kitchen…which by the way all you have to do is put some apple cider vineagr in the bottom of a cup…then make a funnel out of paper and stick it into the cup…make sure the bottom of the funnel does not touch the vinegar and make sure the sides of the cup and the funnel are tightly sealed…then you just sit back and watch swarms and swarms of fruit flies fly into the cup…and mostly get stuck…some wantto stay on the funnel and never go into the cup….those make me angry…sometimes i throw a plastic bag over them and catch them and im like HAHA! GOTCHA! anyways…ya…you dont wanna know how many cups full i had the first time…at least ten…and it took me about 3 days to get them down to like 5 that i could see….so anyways…i was so happy and felt so accomplished until about 3 days ago when i discovered they were coming back…i was soooo mad! and i was like how could this be? i cleaned everything….well i stepped into my cousins bedroom and she had alllll kindsa dirty dishes and there were tons of flies in her room and i was PISSED! she did her dishes and all of them left her room and went into the bathroom and throughout the house and the kitchen…omg!!!!! so i would say i had about 3 times the amount of fruit flies this time because i was to tired to come home and clean….and my stepsister visited this weekend and i wanted to spend time with her….so ya….today i was off work and i set traps in the kitchen and the bathroom and all ive been doing pretty much all day is cleaning cleaning cleaning and taking out cup after cup full of fruit flies…ewwww! i noticed i can spray them with windex and they fall onto the counter or floor or whatever and then i smash em with a paper towel too so i have been sniffing windex all day and now i have a very bad headache…i also poured ammonia down the drains just in case they were living outta the drain!

okay….so i have noticed through this experience that i do not do well on diet and exercise when my life or house is in shambles….why is that? why do i let something that has nothing to do with my health actually start affecting my health? i hate that! its like anytime things arent very in place with me i lose track of myself….and i let myself get stressed out and stuff….grr! i wish i wasnt so human haha…

i did get laundry done at my moms a few days ago thank goodness….it was awful how long id gone without washing clothes…its just soo annoying to take my clothes to my moms house….today i invested in a pretty large hamper and im going to try to do my laundry every time that hamper gets full instead of waiting until every piece of clothing i own has been worn at least 3 times….gross…i know!

i did not have fast food today but i still didnt have healthy food….i made myself a cheeseburger….and my moms cheesy potato casserole and i had some donuts and pecan shortbread cookies for dessert….not good…thats all i had but still not good at all!

i have also noticed how dehydrated i used to be when i drank sodas all the time….every morning ive been waking up with the worst dry mouth ever….and ive been super duper thirsty lately and i figured out its because ive been drinking a lota diet sodas lately….so im back to my water….yum!

okay and so to my fellow buddies thank you so much for your support and the messages and all that you all have left me…they have been wonderful…i didnt realize so many people would realize i wasnt writing blogs lately….but yall did and that amazes me and makes me feel supported! thank you!

okay so thursday im soooo going to grocery shop and get back to my healthy eating as much as i can….and try once again to stay on track…

gnight buddies i have an ammonia headache and must take a shower and head to the bed….thanks again!