arli

ok…so no my do-over was not successful…ive been pretty much eating whatever i want and how ever much i want…ive done horrible…i dont even know why either but i just dont even hardly care…i have notgained since ive been eating what i want…im waiting forthat one pound to creep up on me and make me realize that i cant keep doing what im doing…i hate this feeling…before i was feeling like i was gonna continue the way i was until christmas…flawlessly and then after christmas i could take a slight break and maintain my weight for a bit and then get strict again…and here i am…3 months in…not even close to christmas and i already feltthe need to maintain my weight and eat more….why?!?! i hate it! i dont know what to do….itsreallly easy to say “arli you can do it just hang in there” and stuff like that….but i dont feel like i can do it…i knowi can but its like i have no desire to right now….this sucks..

YAHOO buddies! when i hopped on that scale this morning it said 248.3!!!! just yesterday it said 250.5…so yay!

awesome!

and you know what caused that weight loss mostly? the fact that i exercised and burned all those calories thats fer sure! i always underestimate the power of a workout when it comes to weight loss….i know now that thats the reason ive been having this slump….ive just been too damn lazy to exercise….and now ive been there and done that and im over it….this week im exercising every other day….so today i will have a day off from working out and tomorow i go back!

so…i counted my calories….i know im guilty as charged….but ya…atthe end of the day i just couldnt help it and i counted them…..i didnt do so great….i had about 2350 calories…yucky! not good at all! and i will tell you why….at about 10 or 11 last night after working out and stuff my boyfriend was goin to wendys to get a burger….and i said well im thirsty can we please go to the gas station next door to wendys so we went and i was super hungry becauzse my veggies i made last night turned out horrible…ive decided im not a squash and zucchini kinda girl….they became like slimy…ewww i hated it! so i ate a bit to try and get it down but it was nasty….so ya…i was real hungry and when i went into the gas station to get a drink i also got some buffalo hot wing flavored pretzel nuggets and some pecan shortbread sandies….i thought they were such small packages that it couldnt be so horrible….but sure enough each package was 500 calories…that amazes me…dang how do you even fit 500 calories in such a small package haha! geesh! so anyways…that wasnt the greatest thing and im sure i could have lost a little more weight but thats what stopped me from it….ok…so today the goal is to try and get under 2000 calories…i dont care if i eat 1999 as long as i dont go over 2000 calories ya know? so ya…

so tonight is the night when i start the demolition in my apartment….or aka the cleaning of my apartment!!!

ya…every time i deliver pizzas at dominos i look in peoples houses when they open the door…i know its silly but i love to do it….ive noticed that people who are very proud of their house will purposely tell you to step in or they will delay paying me…like they will answer the door and leave their money on the kitchen table and will run and get it while i get to check out their really awesome house hahahaha….so anyways…i do it….and im like dang how to people keep their houses and apartments so clean man!!!!!!!!! i wish i could….i have all sorts of nice things in my apartmnet but it loks like im a collector of crap when you come into my house because i have soooo much stuff sitting out on the dining room table and the coffee table and the floor and the kitchen i wont even talk about the kitchen…i think im going to take some before and after pictures of the apartment so yall can see just what im talking about haha! and im going allll out….im getting things from closets and organzing them so i will have more room to store stuff….and im going through all of the stuff in my kitchen and the stuff that i dont use very often is going to my moms house because i dont have room for it here….and im going to get alll of the clothes i cant fit into or just wont wear and take em to the goodwill….and all that good stuff….ive got lots to do buddies! welp i work 3-930 tonight and its already 1:20 and before work i was gonna get some panera bread…so i should probably get ready now for work…ill see you buddies tonight!

ok buddies….today was weird because this is how my day started out…

i was supposedly scheduled to work 830-3 at maui wowi this morning but when i got to work today i glanced at the schedule and saw that i was actually scheduled to work 3-930 and someone else was supposed to work the day shift…so she came in and we were like uhhh…..ya this is dumb….so i left and she stayed and so i slept for an extra 3 hours and then went to work at dominos from 4-8…so that was weird…

anyways…i had a ham and cheese sandwich, a handful of grapes, a chicken quesadilla from taco bell…2 tomatoes…half a slice of angel food cake….and right now i have roasted onions, green peppers, zucchini, squash, and potatoes in the oven….it smells yummmy!!!!

after i got off work at dominos i wentto work out…i didnt wantto at all but my boyfriend made me feel bad about not going…im glad he did though because i burned 650 calories from doing the elliptical for 48 minutes!!!! yay….i wanted to stop sooo badly at 25 minutes but i just kept pushing myself….im so proud! yay!

im going to try not to count calories all this week and see if that works better for me…i think i start overthinking everything when i count calories….and sometimes its for the better and sometimes its not….so we will see how this works out for me…im just going to eat sensibly!

welp tomorow i work 3-930 and then im coming home and starting some deep cleaning on my house….it needs to be done sooo badly!!!!!!its disgusting and my moms coming over thursday so i definitely needto clean it…thats motivation fer sure cuz she will kill me if she sees how dirty it is now haha…

welp thats all for now buddies…hope you had as good of a monday as me!

bye bye!

welp buddies…i let myself get a little out of hand this weekend and it put me back into the 250s and im angry!!!!!!

yes…i ate pizza friday night, more pizza saturday, and then i had cake and cheesy bread and an italian sandwich from dominos sunday night…i did absolutely awful…oh ya and a chick fil a chicken sandwich and large waffle fries too!

yikes!

ok…so i weighed in this morning at 250.5…I hate the 250s and im soo mad about it!

welp i gotta go to work now…i have to work maui wowi from 830-3 and dominos from 4-9…ugh! do i ever get a break…my last day off was lasttuesday and i dont get another day off til this thursday….and i have soooo much to do…i have to clean my apartment and do laundry and grocery shop and all sorts of stuff on thursday…oh and i have to teach my mom how to use a computer too haha….thats should be interesting!

welp im bringing a ham n cheese sandwich, grapes, and carrots with lite ranch to work with me so i should do pretty good while im at maui wowi….but thats all i have planned out…oh well im gonna do good today no matter what…thats fer sure!

welp have a great monday buddies!

ok seriously! i just ate the best tomato ever! i so can tell a difference between home grown tomatoes and those that i buy in a supermarket…can yall? have yall ever grown your own tomatoes? my mom used to grow cherry tomatoes in our backyard when i lived there and every morning i would go out and pick about 5 of em and have em for a snack….and 5 was never enough because they were so freaking delicious…they are so juicy and so freaking sweet…mmmm….i loved em so much! well since i have moved outta my moms house i miss those…and you know how i went to that farmers market the other day? well i bought like 8 small tomatoes there…and i have been hesitant to eat them…because lately i haventhad a good tomato like my moms….and this morning i cut up 3 of em and dprinkled a bit of salt…which by the way they did not need the salt so i wont add that next time…but ya they were the best darn tomatoes ive had in a very long time!

ok i weighed in this morning at 248.5 so i met my 248 goal…which is good although i would like to be losing weight quicker…but as long as im losing weight im not gonna complain…i just havent been pushing mysefl as hard as i know i can lately…because i work alll the freaking time and when i get home i just wanna lay on the couch and watch tv….i know i will grow out of this stage but you know what…i dont feel guilty about it anymore because this is a lifestyle change and it is going to take awhile to get a routine going and im planning on being on this earth for a good while longer…so im notrushing it…and im done apologizing for slipping up and eating pizza or for having a little too much peanut butter with my celery or relaxing a little too much after work…at least for now thats how i feel…haha…

ok buddies i have a long day ahead of me with both jobs…wish me luck!

have a great day yall!

okay so yesterday i got under 2000 calories which is great considering how ive been doing and i ate a whooole bunch of veggies

ham: 70/2/1/0
2 slices bread: 70/.5/0/4
1 slice cheese: 70/6/3.5/0
3.5 oz. tomatoes: 18/.2/0/1.2
1.5 oz. celery: 6/.1/0/.7
3.75 oz. broccoli: 36/.4/0/2.8
10.5 oz. pineapple: 143/.3/0/4.2
4 tbsp. lite ranch: 160/14/2/2
2 cup chili: 378/6/.1/16
1/4 c. reduced fat shredded cheese: 80/6/4/0
4 oz. smoothie: 100/2/1/0
15 g almonds: 90/7/1/1.5
20 g dried pineapple: 70/0/0/.5
5 oz. grapes: 98/.3/.1/1.3
5 oz. blackberries: 61/.7/0/7.5

1450 cals/45.5 fat/12.7 sat. fat/41.7 fiber

 all of that food is what i had yesterday but i did also have a small salad of butter lettuces, gorgonzola cheese, and mullens dressing and two cobs of corn with a tiny bit of butter…probably less than 50 cals worth….but still thats a million times better than what ive been doing!!!!

yay!

and today i worked from 430-930…before work i had cantaloupe, pineapple, and a cup of chili with cheese then i went to work and had a peach the whole time i was there although i was very hungry and wanted pizza really badly…we have this fiery hawaiian pizza that has ham, bacon, pineapple, roasted red peppers, jalapenos, i think cheddar cheese, and tabasco sauce….every time i see this pizza or smell it i want it sooo bad…its spicy and sweet and smoky,….you cant go wrong…mmmmmm…i still am thinking about that damn pizza but i didnt give in…today anyways…haha.

so when i got home i had a salad with strawberries, gorgonzola, and mullens dressing and then i had some spaghetti with garlic butter and some cinnamon toast.

here are todays totals:

1 c. chili: 189/3/.1/8
1 slice cheddar cheese: 80/7/4/0
12 oz. cantaloupe: 116/.7/.2/3.1
5 oz. pineapple: 68/.1/0/2
peach: 61/.5/0/2.4
1/4 c. gorgonazola and 1/8 c.: 150/12/7.5/0
1/4 c. mullens dressing: 220/12/2/2
6 oz. romaine: 29/.5/.1/3.6
7.5 oz. strawberries: 68/.6/0/4.3
2 slices bread: 70/.5/0/4
1 tbsp. margarine: 45/5/1/0
1/2 tbsp. sugar: 23/0/0/0
1.5 tbsp. butter: 153/17.3/10.9/0
2 c. spaghetti: 420/2/0/4

1692 cals/61.2 fat/25.8 sat. fat/33.4 fiber

i have not been good with not getting on the scale this week…that was my plan but it was not successful haha….so tonight when i got off work i weighed in at 245.7 and i was like omg! yay! because im shooting for weighing in at 248 by tomorow…now i know sine i had buttery garlicy noodles that it will probably go up from 245 but just getting a glimpse of that weight was nice haha…

tomorow i have to work both jobs…i have maui wowi from 830-3…i get paid from both jobs so i will have to get both checks after maui wowi and cash em and then i will have to change into my dominos clothes and work there from 5-9….goodness gracious man! too much work i swear! but i havent got much of a choice because i have to pay bills ya know?

now not this coming week but the next is when i was spose to go to florida…. so right now i have a week off of maui wowi, but i told dominos to schedule me whenever….soooo i know i will work at maui wowi too but im not gonna work my booty off there…i want to have like two whole days off that would be unbelievably amazing!!!!!!! so thats what i will be doing!

welp i need to go to bed soon since i have a 12 hour day tomorow yuck!!!!

gnight!

ok…today i was off work…yesterday i worked 830-3 at maui wowi and 4-930 at dominos…and when i got home i was dead…completely dead…i had nothing left to give…omg!!!!!! it was awful…

so…i actually brought my lunch to maui wowi…i brought a bunch of raw veggies…broccoli, celery, tomatoes….and a banana and grapes…and raw almonds….ok…so i thought this is gonna be awesome…im gonna eat all these yummy fruits and veggies and get full and stuff…alrighty….so i get to work…i eat my banana first thing….then im bored all morning so i was snacking on grapes…i was tired and knew i was gonna have to be working all day so i had half of a small mocha with orange syrup in it and it was heavenly…i used half skim milk and half whole milk….i just cant do the skim milk in a latte…its just bad…and i only drank half so it was a little over 100 cals…anyways…yummy….ok then when 130 rolls around i was ready to eat all my lunch…i had 2 celery sticks and then there was a line up until i hadc to leave…ok…so i leave…i ate the rest of my celery on the way home to change into my other clothes for dominos…i get to dominos and im starving…the manager made a pizza for us…and of course i was like welp ive not had much of anything and thats just as bad for me as eating a slice of pizza…so i had a slice….i was like this isnt bad because its only one slice ill be fine….ok…so then it gets busy there…then at about 830 it starts slowing down…and my manager found lots of expired dough and we were throwing it out and then he was like lets save some for us to take a pizza home and of course i immediately say no im trying to eat healthier…but yet…that didnt convince me….i made a small sized pizzza with pepperoni and green olives…my fave…because of course ive worked alllll day long….i want something hot to eat….i dont feel like going home and making food because my feet are already throbbing with excruciating pain….so yes…i made myself a pizza….i took it home and i ate half of it….my boyfriend had the other half…then we split a snickers bar in half too….ya…thats awful and i know it….i just dont understand it.

i know im going to have a really amazing week really soon and its going to set the tone for awhile and im going to do really good soon…..this is just so hard to kick an addiction so fast ya know…geesh…whys it gotta be sooo hard!!!!

o and of course i didnt work out last night but since i was off work today i thought i would work outtoday and didnt…

this is how my day went today…

i woke up at 1 pm and i had a plan already to make that 3 bean chili i made the other night that was so delicious so i went to get ingredients for it….then i went to the one and only farmers market we have in our town for the first time ever….i was in heaven…i bought way too much stuff….i bought corn, zucchini which ive never had, squash which i have never had, tomatoes, green tomatoes, peaches, watermelon, onions, cucumbers, green peppers, and blackberries….everything was ssooooo much cheaper so i went crazy with it ya know…and it all tasted so much fresher and better especially the peaches…omg they were perfectly juicy…o i want another one badly!

ok so i had to make fried green tomatoes because it happens to be my favorite fried food…i love it!

so they were the bestthing ever….id never made em myself before…just had em at restaurants and our local fall festoval…and my momma made em for me too…

yummy yum tummy tums!

ok…i know they arentthe best thing in the world…because they are fried…but its better than many other fried foods…anyways…i only had 4 or 5 slices cuz my boyfriend ate em up ….he had like 9 slices haha…he couldnt help himself…anyways…then i had a bowl of my bean chili which did not at all turn out the same as last time and im very disappointed…o well…its still edible…

and then i ate the rest of my potato chips from the night when i had my worst night ever and ate everything bad for me…

and i had that juicy peach and a few blackberries…thats all i ate today…im sure my totals are close to 2000 anyways though because of the fried food…and i added a tad bit of cheese to my chili and i had those damn tater chips and i had them with chive dip…grrr me!!!!

now that i have allll of this good for me food i should be able to stick to my diet…yes i call it diet because thats what i know to call it…i will be able to stick to it the rest of the week….and if i cant then i know somethings definitely wrong with me fer sure!

welp tomorow i work at maui wowi from 3-930 and then thursday i work at dominos from 4-930 and then friday i work another full day…maui wowi in the morn and dominos at night and then saturday i work maui wowi from 3-930 and then sunday i work maui wowi from 12-4…..so ya….i have a lotta workin days ahead of me but they arenttoo bad…just that friday…i hate it and love it at the same time ya know…i need the money but ittakes its toll on me physically and mentally….this brings me to another point…

its not always that i eat the unhealthy foods because i wantthem over the healthy foods…a lot of time i want the healthy foods and i settle for the unhealthy foods because im simply exhausted and dont feel like cooking…so sometimes i dontfeel guilty in the will power area when i eat unhealthy…its just what was there in front of me ya know…and if im hungry and its whats available i will eat that….im only human…i do get tired….i do have a job that requires me to be on my feet always…two jobs at that…but dominos im not always on my feet….cuz i have to drive but you know what im saying…

i really wish that i could stop working for a whole year and see how majorly i could transform my body…i know itwould be a million times easier…i could plan my meals every day…no rushing out the door…no forgetting my healthy lunch…none of that…i would have complete control of what i ate…and i would not be tired all the time because of work and i would totally be able to work out more and stuff….but then again its not real…ya know? because i will have to get back to work and then all those real life factors would come into play again….ugh! life is hard…

listen to me…its ridiculous…i just sound kinda pitiful dont i hahaha…excuses excuses arli!

alright welp ima go to bed its 1 in the am….gnight

so yesterday was rough on me…i dont think that on this journey i have had a worse day than yesterday…because of the way i felt about myself…and because of my binge and total calories and all of that…

blah…so we are over yesterday…here is how today went..

i started out by waking up at about 1 and going grocery shopping for healthy foods cuz we were all out at home…

then i made my fave strawberry salad with blue cheese and some grapes….then i went to work at 4 and was only there til 7…i made 17 bucks..woopdedoo…but im picking up an extra shift at dominos tomorow night from 4 til 8…im already working at maui wowi tomorow from 830 til 3…so tomorow is going to be a long day for me…i brought some raw almonds, dried pineapple, and a banana with me to dominos in case i was tempted to eat pizza…which of course i was…a pepperoni pizza was staring me in the eye…and i walked away…thats right…walked away! see….we always have at least one mess up a night and then everyone has at least one pice…i didnt tonight…yeehaw.

ok when i got home i made some roasted potatoes and baby carrots with onion soup mix seasoning and extra birgin olive oil….then i had a cob of corn…it was yumtastic!!!!

then…i went to the gym again….second night in a row baby…and i did the elliptical for 45 minutes and burned exactly 400 calories and i did the treadmill for 15 minutes and burned 127 calories….the elliptical i did a resistance of 20 for most of the time but for ten minutes i did a resistance of 25….on the treadmill i did a speed of 3 for most of the time and for 5 minutes did a speed of 3.2 and i did a level 3 incline….i know buddies yall are probably way ahead of me…but this is me starting over…and im notgoing to move too fast this time…i refuse!

okay…as for my totals:

7.25 oz. grapes: 142/.4/.1/1.8
7 oz. romaine: 34/.6/.1/4.2
5.5 oz. strawberries: 50/.5/0/3.1
1/4 c. blue cheese: 100/8/5/0
1/8 c. mullens dressing + 1/16 c: 165/9/1.5/1.5
dried pineapple: 70/0/0/.5
almonds: 90/7/1/1.5
banana: 105/.4/.1/3.1
11.25 oz. potatoes: 297/.3/.1/4.8
6 oz. baby carrots: 60/.2/0/3.1
1.5 tbsp. onion soup mix: 30/0/0/0
1 tbsp. evoo: 120/14/2/0
10 green olives: 50/5/1/0
corn on cob: 76/.6/.1/2.3
1389 calories/46 fat/11 sat. fat/25.9 fiber

okay im so ready for this week….im totally going to try to not weigh in until friday….i think that weighing in everyday determines how hard im going to push myself that week….and this week i dont want anything to get in my way…i just want to put 100% into every day this week….then after friday i will allow myself to start weighing myself whenever again…unless i realize that itreally helps me a lot and then ill wait til every friday…anywho…i cant wait to watch the bachelorette tomorow…i really hope she picks reed in the end…or ed….but definitely not kypton or however you spell these names…but ya he seems like he thinks hes too good for her sometimes in my opinion…im soo freaking happy though that wes finally is gone…although i wish she would have listened to that one dude when he came to tell her that wes had a girlfriend…i swear us girls are very easily persuaded into seeing the good in all men…well not all of us ladies but those who are desperate to be loved and to love….

okay enough of that…tomorow my plan is to workout for only 30 minutes if i can stand after working both jobs haha…i know ima be tired….but 30 minutes of working out shouldnt be too hard on me…

welp im going to go get food ready for tomorow so i wont make bad choices…see yall later…

and tabb…girl…thank you for your message…you telling me that i havent been working up to my potential basically kinda lit a fire under this ass….im ready to go now…i AM ready for this and will do this girlfriend! yahoo!

ya…i wentto workout today…i burned a total of 418 calories through the elliptical and the treadmill…i worked up a good sweat…i was very proud of myself because i finally got my butt in the gym and didnt make excuses…but still…i wasnt as happy as i should be..

when i got home i took a shower and me and my boyfriend went to eat at tgifridays…i already knew what i was going to order before we got there…a strawberry fields salad and some loaded potato skins…i didnt realize before this that one potato skin was 240 calories and i had…SIX of them! what?! i was like i can do bad on the appetizer and good on the entree…but i didnt realize i was doing that bad…i knew it had to have lots of calories though because i was so stuffed after eating them…plus heck…thats an equivelant of 3 potatoes…their potato skins are made with a whole half of a dang potato…wow…what in the heck arli!!!!!!!!!

anyways…i felt horrible and felt like i just wasted the workout i did before…plus i had this wrap from my work that was soggy so i ate it…cuz we couldnt sell it….and i wanted to try it anyways…and it had cheese, bacon, ham, lettuce, and pineapple…it wasnt that bad or anything because it had very little cheese and bacon and i didnt eat the whole thing….but when i dont know for sure how many calories is in something i hate that and i feel like ive done bad…and i start to mentally punish myself….anyways…sometime after tgifridays…i was feeling really low about everything and i decided i just dontcare…i wentto the grocery store and bought carmel dulce de leche ice cream, white cheddar cheezits, krunchers potato chips, chive dip, and a diet cherry dr pepper….and i had me some of everything…and i knew before hand how horrible i was going to feel afterwards…and yet i didntcare about the negatives…only the way i was going to feel as i tasted the food….this my friends is my addiction creeping up on me and winning….and i cant tell you how disappointed i am…i dont even want to tell you because you all already know this feeling…im sure…im depressed…im sad…im sick to my stomach…and i just want a hug or something or a shoulder to cry on…

i can say that buddyslim has really helped me to realize that i am an emotional eater…total emotional eater and i do have an addiction to food…and what sets my addiction apart from my fathers drug addiction? nothing…im sure he feels awful that he relapsed when i was about 16 or 17….well he was a drug addict when him and my mom were married…they divorced because of it…although he will tell you its because she was an alcoholic…im sure it was bad either way…but they divorced when i was like 4 or 5 or something…i dont remember any of it…then my dad got clean for quite some time and married a lady that he loved and ya…then they divorced…his mom died…he got addicted to drugs again….and here he is again…after he lost everything pretty much…here he is again trying to mend things again…he always tries to do this once things are going better for him….the last birthday party our family threw he told me he wants us to be closer and then he talked about himself forever…did not ask me a single thing about my life…maybe he does care and maybe he does wanna know about my life…butgoodness gracious it doesnt take that much talent to show me that you care…yes you can tell me over and over again that you wish we were close….i can sit there and tell you all sorts of things that i wish would happen but wishing does you no good….you actually have to try!

ok this blog is getting much deeper than i intended it to be!

tomorow i work at dominos from 4-8…im actually cool with going to dominos…its been two weeks since i worked there….i just want stress free work for a day…and dominos … although i dont normally like it…i think i will appreciate it tomorow…i getto drive around for most of the day…slice pizzas…and answer phones….no big deal…i get to sit on my butt for a good amount of my shift…its a short shift…and i will probably leave with like 25 extra bucks which i need desperately for groceries because we are totally out of healthy foods in the house…

buddies…right now life isnt looking great and sunny and peachy…

i hope i can change it soon…

yall i just keep teeter tottering from 250s to 240s…im getting so annoyed! this morning it was 251.2….after work it was 251.1…omg im so freakin annoyed….GRR! i know the reason i have not been losing as much weight every week and thats because of my lack ofv exercise which means what? im exercising today…right when i get finished with this blog im going to go exercise for the first time in a month! omg! im so happy! im finally doing it with no excuses….i dont want to at all but im going to because i know i cant keep being a lazy bum!…it will get me no where fast…

anyways…i went to the doc earlier this week to renew my birth control….the last time i went was at the beginning of this weight loss journey…that was when they told me i weighed 275 and my blood pressure was 132 over 82…and they said its getting a little close to high blood pressure so that was when i decided i have to do this whether i want to or not…so….when i went this past week…i weighed in at 252….and my blood pressure was 130/80….so yay im actually doing good for myself for once…its been soo freakin hard and man have i sucked at doing perfectly…but we all kinda do especially in the beginning…i have to keep reminding myself that this is only the beginning…it takes awhile to get it down and even when i get it down im still gonna slip up…its only been 2.5 months and ive already lost 25 pounds so yahoo! and my blood pressure is back to normal…hpefully everything else is normal with me too…

so my boss and i got into it a bit today because i left some smoothie blonds out over night and he said it cost him 90 dollars and i didnt apologize…instead i said…”welll thats a risk you take when you thaw them out at room temperature instead of thawing them out in the refrigerator which is what our trainer told us to do” and he did not like my response…but i did not like the way he came at me….so thats why i didnt apologize…then i felt bad though…and then he said….”ya know arli…all i wanted was an apology but instead you have an excuse” and i said “well i really am sorry ya know…im just telling you that if i was able to overlook something like that being as experienced at this as i am then someone else will too…so maybe we shouldnt thaw them at room temp” and then he saw i was kinda getting sad…and he said “im not mad at you personally i just wish you would have made a less expensive mistake ya know…i still luv ya” and i looked at him funky and then he said “ill give you a hug” and then he hugged me and everything was better….then he goes “you know…you are a very opinionated person…but i respect that because ive worked with people who have no backbone and i dont respect them but i do respect you” and i was like cool…hahaha….anyways…we later found out that we could still use them and it wasnt that big of a deal to begin with haha…wow…silly stuff i tell ya…but ya my day was bad because that was how it started…

so im going to go work out…im gonna be slow at first…ill probably only do 30 or 45 minutes on elliptical…and then ima come home and shower and then me and muh boyfriend are going to tgifridays cuz i have a ten dollar off coupon…..so cool!

bye yall! ill talk about my food later!