arli

i woke up today at 8 a.m. i stepped on the scale and it said 249.9 and i was so excited…i knew it wasnt gonna stick with me through the whole day but just seeing it on the scale was amazing enough!!!! i cant wait to start my 240 journey!!!!

when i got home from work the scale wasnt as flirtatious and it said i weighed 251.6 so…ya….anyways…

at work today it was really super slow so i drank a little too much leftover smoothies out of boredom! but i did have raspberries, blueberries, and grapes that i brought into work and i depserately wanted a bagel with cream cheese but i didnt eat one…cuz i rule haha…

when i got home from work i was sooooo hungry and i ate carrots with light ranch to hold me over til dinner.

for dinner i am still in the process of eating it…but ive had 1 c. of spaghetti with 1/4 c. of sauce and 1/2 tbsp. of parm cheese…i also had a sliced up tomato sprinkled with sea salt…so far thats all ive had but i will be having another 1 c. of spaghetti with 1/4 c. sauce and 1/2 tbsp. parmesan cheese…..im just trying to savor the flavor so im eating slow…taking breaks…and eating veggies to help fill me up so i will truly be satisfied with this spaghetti after i eat it….i usually scarf it down without even thinking about it and then im like what the heck whered it go? i want more! haha…also i am going to be having a salad of romaine and green bell peppers with some french dressing later…yummy tummy….

welp my cold today is a bit better….not 100% yet but im trying to get there…i dont have a single day off this week so i hope i will be ok…

welp i will write later yall…here are my totals  SO FAR!:…

4.5 oz. raspberries: 66/.9/0/8.3
2.75 oz. blueberries: 44/.2/0/1.9
8 oz. grapes: 156/.5/.1/2
4 oz. carrots: 40/.1/0/2
smoothie: 250/2/0/0
2 tbsp. lite ranch: 80/7/1/0
1 c. spaghetti: 210/1/0/2
1/4 c. spaghetti sauce: 50/1.3/0/1
.5 tbsp. parm cheese: 10/.75/.25/0
6.5 oz. tomato: 33/.4/.1/2.2

929/14.2/1.5/19.4

i got lotsa fruits and veggies in today…i have not been getting my lean meats in as often lately….i will work on that…i dunno how important it is to get those in….if anyone knows let me know!

i think ima take a nap….then wake up and eat the rest of my sketti and a big ol salad and maybe a bag of healthy pop popcorn or some more fruit…..see yall lata!!!!!

good news: i weighed in after work at 250.6 yahoo!

bad news i ate at red robin tonight…my burger, alone, had over 1000 calories plus i had 2 orders of fries and 1/2 of a mud pie slice…omg…it was soooo good tho!

more bad news: i weighed in at 253.6 when i got home haha…geesh!!!!

even more bad news: today was sposed to be my boyfriends first day at his new job and they sent him home saying they dont need him so i was pissed…but he has an interview at a new wal mart thats opening soon for the electronics department….hes already had 2 interviews and he has another one this week and has to pee in a cup for his drug test…which he will pass….so hopefully he will get that job….geesh…getting a job is horrible right now.

 i bet you didnt think there could be any more bad news: im still sick and am getting worse…im sneezing even more today and last night i didnt get much sleep cuz i couldnt breathe right…grrrrr.

welp here are my totals for the day….its awful!

 2 slices wheat bread: 90/1/0/5
1 slice cheese: 70/6/3.5/0
2 oz. ham: 70/2/1/0
16 oz. pineapple: 218/.5/0/6.4
small smoothie: 200/0/0/0
4 halls cough drops: 60/0/0/0
bleu ribbon burger: 1052/63/?/3
2 fries: 868/36/?/8
1/2 mudd pie: 687/32/?/3

3315 cals/140 fat/? sat. fat/25.4 fiber

I worked today from 10:30 til 6:30….i did nottake a break…because we got slammed for it being a sunday…so im a bit tired needless to say…and i only got like 6 hours of sleep…and for me thats not enough…blah….anyways…for two days now ive had a bit of a sore throat and today ive been sneezing like crazy and getting this mucus like gunk in my throat…its gross…who the heck gets sick when its 95 degrees outside? grrr! i never get sick in the summer man!!!!!

welp…i havent done horrible and havent done wonderful on food intake today…i should have eaten 300 less calories…but at least i got a lot of fruits and veggies in….heres what i had to eat today:

2.5 oz. romaine: 12/.2/0/1.5
15.75 oz. honeydew: 161/.4/.2/3.6
10.75 pineapple: 146/.3/0/4.3
1/3 c. cheddar cheese: 110/9/6/0
3 tbsp. mullens dressing: 165/9/1.5/1.5
a few bites of greek salad with chicken, feta, and greek dressing: 80/3/1/1
small smoothie: 200/0/0/0
2 c. spaghetti: 420/2/0/4
3/4 c. spaghetti sauce: 150/4/0/3
1 tbsp. parm cheese: 20/1.5/1/0
whole bag healthy pop popcorn: 250/0/0/12.5
53 cherries: 227/.7/.1/7.6
2.5 oz. hot buffalo wing pretzel pieces: 349/17.5/7.5/1.2

2290 cals./50.3 fat/17.3 sat. fat/40.2 fiber

i had a lot of fiber today…i cut my fat in half from what i had yesterday…but i ate too many calories and am disappointed in my final number for the day but its ok…theres always tomorow…and im on my period right now so im more hunrgy than normal…i always am when im on my period…i dunno why…

welp im tired and can hardly keep my eyes open and have to be at work at 830 tomorow and its 11:30 roght now so its time for bed!!!!! gnight and sleep tight….im gonna have a mug of hot green tea with honey and lemon while i lay in bed … mmm hmmm….

OKAY…so yesterday i worked from 4-8:30 at dominos….i took 7 deliveries and made 28 bucks which isnt too shabby…while i was at work i had raspberries, blueberries, and dried fruit….when i got off work i had a big ol salad of romaine, bell pepper, blue cheese, and mullens french dressing….yum!!!! then i fell asleep at like 10:45…and slept til 1:45 in the morn….when i woke up i was starved because i only had 900 calories….and so i told my boyfriend i was hungry and he said he was too and of course…you can probably guess we went to get fast food…our original plan was mcdonalds and i was gonna get a chicken nugget meal and my totals for the day would add up to right around 1800 like ive been doing so i didnt feel too bad about it….but when we gotto the 24 hour mcdonalds at 2:15 they said they were already serving breakfast….which they used to do that starting at 3 am so i was pissed….so we went to rallys because its also open really late….i got a bacon cheddar crunch, spicy chicken sandwich without mayo and 2 small fries…what the heck!?! and that bacon cheddar crunch was a joke…i didnt crunch into anything…it was all mush…and it had ketchup or bbq sauce on it or something and made it even nastier…ugh!!!!! lets just say it was the grossest fast food of alllllllll time!!!!!!!!!! i sort of had a fast food epiphany…it took rallys to finally make me realize that fast food is not food…its garbage…its not doing me any good….unless its panera bread haha….because their food is yumo! and nutritious! mm mm good! but anyways….i just had to write about this…i have to be at work in an hour…i work 10:30 til 6:30….kind of a long day for me because lately ive only been working 6 hour shifts at the most….but yay hopefully i will make some okay tips…im going to the grocery before work because my boss said we need a few more bundles of bananas for the smoothies to be able to make it through the day without running out….and ima pick me up a few healthy things to eat while im there…okeedokee…welp…i will talk to yall tonight about my food intake and such….peace!

 3 oz. raspberries: 44/.6/0/5.5
3 oz. blueberries: 48/.3/0/2
12 oz. honeydew: 122/.3/.1/2.7
3/4 square thin crust cheese pizza: 84/4.2/1.5/.6
40 g dried fruit: 160/6/.5/0
7.25 oz. romaine: 30/.6/.1/4.3
3 oz. bell pepper: 23/.2/0/.8
1/4 c. blue cheese: 167/13.6/8.8/0
1/4 c. mullens dressing: 220/12/2/2
bacon cheddar crunch: 370/19/9/2 ewwwww!
2 small fries: 590/38/20/6 (2 g trans fats) grossssss!
spicy chicken sandwich: 550/37/10/3 YUCK!

2408 cals/131.8 fat/52 sat. fat/2 trans fat/28.9 fiber

OK yall! I weighed in this morning at 251.2 and then after work i weighed in at 251.7 … i had panera bread before work and by the time i got off wrk i was starved….and i did a horrible thing and ate half of a large pepperoni pizza all by myself….PLUS a whole bag of breadsticks dipped in cheese sauce…that is well ver 1500 calories just in one sitting! then while i was watching some documentaries tonight i ate some angel food cake with lite cool whip….omg! what was i thinking? well ill tell you what i was thinking…i was thinking well i did s good this week without trying that hard and without exercising so eating badly tonight shouldnt affect me a whole lot…and so i ate the damn pizza and breadsticks and cake…and now what am i thinking? im thinking what the heck arli! after i had my pizza and breadsticks i weighed again at 251.9

anyways…i watched some documentaries tonight off of netflix about obesity and such…and you know what…i actually learned a lot about the psychological part of why we eat horribly…the way that food companies advertise to us specifically to make us want that food….the reason why people who care a lot about these subjects who are in government cant say a word about it or get anything done…which by the way is because the food companies are paying off the people who can allow these people to go public about stuff….the fact that we eat poison daily in many of our foods just because its cheaper to make food…and the fod industry is about money not health r well being…all these stupid little symbols like “smart choice” and whole grain and all this stuff is just itty bitty differences compared to what it used t be….everythings a lie…the food we eat is junk…BLAH!

i want to grow my own fruits and veggies organically….but guess what i cant….i dont have land for that…i live in an apartment….i want to buy these organic fruits and veggies but guess what i dont even know where to get this stuff except from 2 grocery stores in town and they have a very limited supply of organic choices and they all look like they have been sitting on the shelf way longer than the other stuff…and they are a million times more expensive…

ugh! and you know what…im actually kind of sick and tired of people acting like its just that easy….im tired of people telling other people to just suck it up and do it especially people who know what it used to be like but because they have had success they think that its ok to talk down to those who are still in the process of growing and learning on this journey…yes its freaking hard to do this…its unbelievable how hard it is….and everyone who is on this site should know that or else they wouldnt have joined buddyslim….so stop talking down to people…stop just acting like its as simple as doing it…as just waking up and doing it and going for it….we all very well know that our eating habits are an emotional problem…we eat because we are sad..stressed…mad…dont feel good enough for our partners…whatever it is we eat the foods we eat because we associate it with happiness…and we think we are going to fill this hole that we feel in our stomachs…so we eat and that hole doesnt go away so we just keep eating and eating and putting stuff into our bodies when really its not what we need to put in…its what we need to put out there…whatwe need to get out of our system…our sadness…our depression…our stress…allll of that stuff that we keep so deep and dearto our hearts….that we can really never begin to tell another person about…

and you know what we all do on this site….we associate ourselves with the number on that scale…if that number goes down our spirits go up and if that number goes up our spirits go down…and why is that? because we associate happiness with skinny people…we think that the answer to all of this is to get skinny and everything goes away and we are going to just be happy campers so lots of us dont wanna go through the hard work of exercise and a healthy diet….lots of us really just want a quick fix like gastric bypass or lapband or whatever…not all of us but a lot of us….but guess what? that solves nothing…and thats because people who want that have yet to understand why they cant lose weight and its not because their bodies just wont let them….its because they havent found out why they are unable to stick to a healthy diet and exercise or just whatever they tried….they dont think that they have a problem deep down inside…they think they are just fat and unlucky and like to eat….

BLAH!

i watched too much stuff about this and i have all these things going through my head right now and i just need to go to sleep because its 4:45 in the morn and i can hardly keep my eyes open…

i just want people on here to not get mad at people who say they wantto lose weight but then dont exercise and eat unhealthy foods….dont get mad….dont write a blog bashing these people….what good is that going to do? when i read that stuff i want to just be like bitch i will do whatever i want and then i wantto rebel against you or something…i dunno what it is but it does not help…it does nothing for me…and it actually makes me sad to think that someone who is going through the same things as me can talk down to me and my fellow buddyslimmers like that….we are not here to bash each other are we? i thought we were here for support…understanding…inspiration…growth….all of that good stuff…..not to just tell people what all the doctors and politicians and parents are saying…if i wanted to hearthat i would go to the doctor for a physical all the time….so that they can say arli you are so fat and last time you were here you weighed 20 lbs. less so you need to get active and eat healthy foods….DUH!!!!!!!! and if i wanted to hear that i would put on some really tight clothes and go over to my moms house and say hey mom my clothes are tight and let her lecture me about how fat im getting….and if i wanted to hear that i would watch some stupid idiot tell people that the food industry is notto blame…but we are to blame…and we need to just become more active…ugh! im just tired of people acting like its just that simple…if it was just that simple im pretty sure many more people would be thin…right?

ok….and im not writing this pointing fingers at anyone in particular so i dontwant any haters haha….just saying in general it happens a lot…i know a lot of people who do this stuff….who say just do this arli and you will lose weight…and they act like its nothing…when you have a problem as deep as mine its not just nothing…its a big deal…i am addicted to the way food makes me feel…thats that….and i wish i didnt associate myself with the number on the scale but i do…and i wish i liked my body more than i do but i really have come a long way so far in this short 3 months and i am becoming more and more accepting of my body…and everything…and i can only hope that my food addiction will be cured…but if its not i will live with it…dont know how successful i will be on this journey but i want to continue it for as long as i possibly can…and i want badly to be successful and i usually am successful atthings that i pursue….so yea!

alright im done with this deep blog entry here.

gnight and sweet dreams!

welp here is what i ended up with after some mindless snacking…oops…

1 banana: 105/.4/.1/3.1
3/4 c. grapes: 78/.2/.1/1
1/2 c. blueberries: 41/.2/0/1.7
1/2 c. granola: 165/2.2/.75/3
a few smoothie sips: 50/1/0/0
1.5 serv. rice snacks: 105/4/0/0
2.5 oz. romaine: 12/.2/0/1.5
1/8 c. blue cheese: 60/5/3.2/0
1/8 c. mullens dressing: 110/6/1/1
4.5 oz. bell pepper: 30/.2/0/1
4.5 oz. baby carrots: 45/.1/0/2.3
2 tbsp. lite ranch: 80/7/1/0
1 tbsp. buffalo hot sauce: 5/0/0/0
5.75 oz. baked french fries: 230/7.7/2/3.9
3 tbsp. ketchup: 45/0/0/0
7 fat free crackers: 80/0/0/0
2 slices cheese: 210/18/10.5/0
1/2 c. sugar free fat free pudding: 140/.7/.4/0
1/2 c. lite whipped cream: 80/4/4/0
bag of jolly time healthy pop popcorn: 250/0/0/12.5

1921 cals/56.9 fat/23.1 sat. fat/31 fiber

my fiber is good and my fat isnt too bad….my calories suck…but still im under 2000 so thats ok…and my saturated fat isnt very good either.

oh well.

see yall tomoro! gnight and sweet dreams!

Ok yall…i know yall already know about micheal jackson dieing…i for some reason was not surprised…is that weird? i swear theres just always something crazy happening with him.  It is really sad though to me because in my opinion we could have seen more from him…I just hope that he did everything he wanted to do with his life and career…hopefully he wasnt waiting for a time to come back and do more with his career…hopefully he was happy with everything in his life…i just always get sad if i think someone was working on something wonderful when they died…like heath ledger had so much more he could have done with his life…he was becoming a great great actor… he was actually my favorite actor at the time and not to mention he was a hottie mchotterson!!!  Anyways…I started my period today and I cried when I heard about MJ’s death…at first i was like oh…hmm….and then when i saw them talking about it on MTV i got really sad and started bawling…wow…

anyways…my food intake has been great today…it kind of has been all week…so far i have only had 1150 calories today…and i am not even hungry at the moment so yay!

i am craving some sweets though….i have the ingredients to make some delicious jello pudding dessert….i cube some angel food cake and i make sugarfree fat free cheesecake pudding with skim milk and i mix in some lite cool whip and i spoon that on top of the angel food cake and then i add raspberries and strawberries…and all of thatis about 300ish calories…and i get a large portion and its very satisfying for my sweet tooth…yum!

okay so my boyfriend got a job today…yay!!! hes in a much better mood now! and things are looking up for us.

hes gonna be working in a factory that makes meals for people in the army…hes gonna be on the packaging line at the factory where they make them and he will be working 4 days a week from 6:30 am til 5 pm…and hes off fridays, saturdays, and sundays….and hes gettin 8 bucks an hour..which isnt much…but im sure it will increase over time if he sticks with it…cool!!!!! so no more money stress at the moment yall!

okay…so here is my food intake for the day so far:

1 banana: 105/.4/.1/3.1
3/4 c. grapes: 78/.2/.1/1
1/2 c. blueberries: 41/.2/0/1.7
1/2 c. granola: 165/2.2/.75/3
a few smoothie sips: 50/1/0/0
1.5 serv. rice snacks: 105/4/0/0
2.5 oz. romaine: 12/.2/0/1.5
1/8 c. blue cheese: 60/5/3.2/0
1/8 c. mullens dressing: 110/6/1/1
4.5 oz. bell pepper: 30/.2/0/1
4.5 oz. baby carrots: 45/.1/0/2.3
2 tbsp. lite ranch: 80/7/1/0
1 tbsp. buffalo hot sauce: 5/0/0/0
5.75 oz. baked french fries: 230/7.7/2/3.9
3 tbsp. ketchup: 45/0/0/0

1161 calories/34.2 fat/8.2 sat. fat/18.5 fiber

I have not had as much saturated fat today as i have been getting lately because i only had a little bit of blue cheese so far today….I have had 3 different fruits today and 3 veggies…yay! i love ALDI and their affordable produce! yippie hooray!

so when i first weighed in this morning the scale said 250.2 and i was just like whatthe hell where did thatcome from….and so i thought it was a trick like usual….so i went about my day….and when i got home from work tonight it said 251.3….which its always more at night for me…and anyways i was very happy!!!!

yay!

ok….so today i totaled at 1755 calories which i think is great! i decided that i am not even going to try and shoot for 1200 calories like i used to….ima big girl and i need more calories…my body demands more calories from me and i think i had been depriving myself and it was leading to binge eating and now my max calories is 2000 but my ideal goal every day is 1800….and if i get between 1200-1800 and im nothungry then so be it…thats great too….and if i need 1900 then thats cool tooo….i just wana try my best to get less than 2000 per day…my weight loss seemed to go crazy just recently…one week i just cant lose weight itseems…and every time i got on the scale it would say 257 or 258 then the next week its 255 and then this week im in the 252 range…its making me pretty happy….i havent even been working out…its been close to a month now girls and boys! ahh! i feel horrible…but i know i will bounce back and get on it again….i just told my boyfriend earlier today that i will be working outagain starting next week…yes i know i should stop talking aboutitand do it…butyou know…

my boyfriend is probably joining the army buthe has to lose weight so hes been working outreally hard lately…so i should be joining him soon with that.

i dont know if our relationship is strong enough to hold up while hes in the army…i love him to pieces but i just dont know how serious our relationship is going to get….and i dont know that hes going to want to stay in the relationships…whatever happens will happen for a reason…i have no control of it…i used to think i could control how people felt and i now know through experience that whatever i say it doesnt matter…hes going to feel how he wants to feel and will do as he pleases…and whatever makes him happy is whati wanthim to do and if its notbeing with me then greatand if it is being with me then great…

i would miss the heck out of him and would have to go through rough times if our relationship does end but i know now that its not the end of my world if he chooses to end it.

well thats enough of that….i just gotteary-eyed a bit.

welp here are my totals yall:

1/4 c. mullens dressing: 220/12/2/2
9 oz. romaine: 43/.8/.1/5.4
1/2 c. blue cheese: 200/16/10/1
3 oz. smoothie: 50/0/0/0
2 slices cheese: 140/12/7/0
1 slice wheat bread: 100/1/0/3
1 banana: 121/.4/.2/3.5
12 grape tomatoes: 37/.4/.1/2.4
1/4 c. dried fruit: 160/6/.5/0
6 oz. strawberries: 54/.5/0/3.4
100 blueberries: 80/.4/0/3.2
10 fat free crackers: 120/0/0/0
2 slices cheese: 140/12/7/0
raisin granola: 220/3/1/4
rice snacks: 70/2.5/0/0

1755 cals/67 fat/27.9 sat. fat/27.9 fiber

gnight!

welp yesterday i consumed 1800 calories but i ate such healthy foods that i dont even care about that…plus i worked yesterday so i burned a littlemore calories than a non-work day…also…i think im going to start allowing myself more calories anyways because when i dont allow myself more calories i tend to feel deprived and then i go over the calories ive allowed myself and feel like a faiulre and im done with that…

oh ya and even after those horrible days full of fast food and no exercise over the weekend i weighed in today at 253.2….so im okay!

so heres my totals from yesterday:

3/4 c. raisin bran: 143/.8/0/6
1/4 c. skim milk: 23/.2/.1/0
red delicious apple: 110/.4/.1/5
2 oz. smoothie: 33/0/0/0
6 macadamia nuts: 100/10.8/1.7/1
8 oz. strawberries: 73/.7/0/4.5
4.25 oz. baked crinkle cut fries: 200/6.2/1.3/2.8
1 tbsp. ketchup: 15/.1/0/0
15 g, cheddar cheese rice cakes: 70/2.5/0/0
bean and cheese burrito: 240/7/1.5/6
2 tbsp. light ranch: 80/7/1/0
8 oz. baby carrots: 80/.2/.1/4
45 g rice snacks: 210/7.5/0/0
peach: 61/.5/0/2.4
2 servings dried fruit: 320/12/1/0
banana popsicle: 50/0/0/0

1808/55.9/6.8/31.7

So yesterday I did great so I am ready to do great again today…I am going to make a really delicious salad tonight…I cant wait!

HEY NANCY:  I read your blog about the jon and kate plus 8 thing….i watched it last night too and it was kind of driving me nuts!!!! none of us really know how they dealt with their relationship with each other….they never showed it on the show…i always wondered how they acted with each other behind closed dooors and every time i thought about it i would think theres no way they have a good relationship….but i would try and make myself think that i was wrong ya know because i wanted em to have a good relationship…and so when i heard about the jon controversy i was not surprised at all…i expected that to happen soon so im kind of happy for them for finally moving on because although she doesnt realize that theres a plus side right now i know she will eventually….she deserves someone who loves her for the controlling freak that she is hahaha….i mean yes…she has to be that way or it would be total chaos….but i feel like shes over the top sometimes .. but shes only human like all of us….but theres someone out there who will embrace her controlling personality who willlove her for all of her flaws and it was not jon….she needs to move on and hopefully she will be seeing brighter days soon….i feel for her because i can just see how alone she is in all of this….sad

welp….i cant wait to watch Chopped tonight and the best thing i ever ate…on the foodnetwork…anyone else love these shows…ahhh i just love chopped!!! favorite show on tv right now!

okay…ill talk to yall later!

Okay…so let me warn everyone now…this COULD be a long blog but I dunno yet.

Well after my blog post about Taco Bell the other night I got a message from a buddy asking me why I ate Taco Bell and how I felt before after and during the eating of my taco bell and what kind of advice i would give someone else who wanted to eat taco bell and it really got me thinking…and so i wrote this to him:

“before i ate the taco bell i was saying…”arli u know its going to make you feel like crap later”….then i was saying…”but youre hungry…and whats one day of taco bell gonna hurt”…and then i would go to the fridge and see if there was something more healthful that would satisfy me and there wasnt and so i made some sorry excuse up in my head that it was ok for me to eat taco bell because i did not have anything else at home that would satisfy me even though i really knew it was bologna!!!!
and then while i was eating it i tried not to think about anything…i just watched tv and pretended i wasnt eating it and i ate it real fast…
and then after i ate it my stomach was satisfied but my mind was stressed and disappointed with myself!!!
and you are right i would always have given someone advice to not eat taco bell and try and find something else better for you to eat when youre hungry…but i guess i cant listen to my own advice.”

Okay so now I feel like after writing that it has helped me to understand why i thought i needed taco bell….and maybe if i do ever get that nasty crap again…i wont eat and watch tv…i will think about every bite going into my mouth and try not to ignore that it is happening….maybe that will helpme to kick the habit of emotional eating…i dunno…but thank you fellow buddy for openeing my eyes….i suggest that everyone ask themselves those questions because they really get you thinking.

So…for today let me tell you about my second day in a row of awful horrible disgusting eating.

i didnt eat until 5 p.m. and when i did eat i went to mcdonalds and got a club chicken sandwich, crispy, no mayo, no tomato……and a medium fry…..and a large coke!

while i was eating this mcdonalds food i was looking around at the pictures of mochas, lattes, and cappucinos they have up advertising their mccafe….and so i really wanted a white chocoloate mocha from starbucks real bad! so i had to make a special trip to starbucks and i got a VENTI iced white chocoloate mocha with caramel added to it and whipped cream on top….omg!!!! thankfully i did not drink all of it…i gave the last 1/3 of the drink to my cousin to finish…

then i went to my bro’s bday party and ate half a piece of earthquake cake which combines coconut, cream cheese, pecans, and chocolate…and i had half a piece of banana cake with cream cheese frosting….then i had a large cup of very sweet iced tea with lemon….

and thats what i ate today….its horrible…and i feel sick because im not used to having all that sugar in my diet…gross..

heres my estimated totals…and i overestimated i believe just so i can really be honest with myself:

club chicken crispy sandwich: 630/28/7/4
medium fry: 380/19/2.5/5
grande iced white chocolate mocha with caramel: 400/11/8/0
2 half pieces of cake (guesstimate): 350/10/5/1
sweet tea: 230/0/0/0

Totals: 1990 cals/68 fat/22.5 sat. fat/10 fiber

okay….so thats all of that nasty food…gosh..i got no nutritional value either and im sure i will have to snack on something later on…but hopefully not…i do need to go to bed a little early tonight because i have to be at work at 830 in the morn so ya…i dont wanna be too tired to do my job…blah…

so i am going to be going to florida for sure in july and im super duper excited…we are going to cocoa beach…anyone ever been there? you should let me know if you have and you should tell me where to hang out and stuff haha…im gonna be looking up some stuff tonight so i can get excited…i just wanna lay on the beach with my girl friends..talk and have pina coladas and not worry about diets or exercises…and just enjoy some time with friends and smile and laugh and have fun…thats not too much to ask for right?

welp…ill talk to yall later on!