arli

Yay for my new scale!!! it is so nice to be able to weigh my food because i am shocked as to how off i was at guessing how much i was eating…i mean some things were close but i just realized that when i eat chicken i eat two servings of it!!! my chicken breast tonight weighed 8 oz. and i would normally eat all of it even though a serving is only 4 oz.  geesh!!! we are such overfed americans haha!

anyways…ive been guessing close with my fruits and veggies though so thats good!

Welp…i went to work at 4 and once again left early…at 7:45….pointless!!!! supposedly we are supposed to be busy this week coming up though because its the first of the month tomorow and people get checks in the mail for unemployment and welfare or something i dunno anything about that stuff but my boss said it was gonna be busy this week so i am really hoping so!!! i think what i hate about dominos lately is that we are so dead and im bored….i hate being bored at my job! it sucks big time!

so i did pretty good again today…here are my totals for the day:

9.75 oz. pineapple (133/.3/0/3.9)
10 oz. cantaloupe (97/.6/.1/2.6)
2 oz. pita chips (280/10/1/4)
smart ones fettucine alfredo (240/3.5/1.5/4)
1 tbsp. peanut butter (95/8.5/1.8/1)
2 slices whole wheat bread (90/1/0/5)
peach (38/.3/0/1.5)
8 oz. potato (211/.2/.1/3.4)
4 oz. carrot (47/.2/0/3.2)
4.25 oz. onion (51/.1/0/1.7)
1 tbsp. canola oil (120/14/1/0)
1.5 tbsp. onion soup mix (61/0/0/0)
4 oz. chicken (124/1.4/.4/0)

(1587 calories/40.1 fat/5.9 saturated fat/30.3 fiber)

Yay!!! I am going to be having some fruit when i get back from working out though….so it will add up to about 1700 actually….not my best…but not bad at all!  i will try to stay away from the fruit but im having a sweet tooth right now…and i think i wont be able to resist the craving!  im very happy with my fiber intake for the day and my saturated fat!!! YAY! cool! i cant wait to weigh next friday….i really hope that im under 254….my weight loss seems to be slowing, but its possibly because of me being on my period this past week…hopefully its almost over!!!

When I was at target today i saw some really athletically fit pretty girls and usually i would look at them and think..ugh skinny bitches….but today i looked at them in a new light…..i looked at them and thought happy thoughts…i said to myself “thats ok….she aint gonna have nuttin on me when im at my goal!!!” haha…wow….im ridiculous….but i really did think about that and then i laughed to myself and people probably thought…what the heck is wrong with this crazy woman haha!ok…anyways……i will probably take a pic of my new scale…so yall can see how cute it is…ill put it on my next blog haha….wow…im a little obsessed..

welp im off to the gym…..i need to get at least 30 minutes in on the elliptical…and i think i will probably do 15 on the bike tonight or on the treadmill or just stay on the elliptical..not sure…depends on how im feelin! im already tired…and wanted to juststay home and not go to the gym at all…but thats something the old arli would do….and im not her anymore!

welp yall here comes another month on this journey!!! the first month i did not make any monthly goals just long term goals but this month i would like to make goals for the month…so here goas

1.  lose another ten pounds

2.  work out 5 days a week…and to add to this….do the eliptical for at least 30 minutes every time i work out!!!

3.  try new breakfast foods…like oatmeals, cereals, whole grain pancakes/waffles, turkey sausage, etc.

4.  try tabbouleh (or is it spelled tabouli?) and couscous

5.  eat more veggies

and i can not think of anything else i would like to accomplish for the month of june.  Later in my journey i will start making goals such as not eating fast food for a whole month and doing the eliptical for 45 minutes every time i work out and stuff like that but im just trying to start slow or else it will overwhelm me! also at the end of every month im going to take more pics of my body so i can really see my progress once i get to my goal!!! im sure it will be cool to see how far ive come!

right now i would just really like to start trying new foods and making more homemade meals!!!

last night i went to walmart to buy a food scale but they didnt have any i wanted and i remember seeing one at target that was digital and it was pink and i wanted it real bad but didnt have the money but now i do so i am going to get it today!!!!

while i was at wal mart last night i did find some fruits to eat tho!!! and boy were they cheaper than the place i usually go to…didnt look as fresh but they still made the cut!  i got a honeydew, a cantaloupe, and 2 pineapples…i bought new tupperware to store them in because i didnt have enough!!! and i also bought some chicken breast…when i got home i put each chicken breast in a plastic baggie and froze them….so that way if i want chicken i will justgrab one out for me…im not buying things for my boyfriend anymore haha….he gets more money than me now as a tattoo artist so when i go to the grocery i get what i want to eat and thats it! sorry boyfriend! haha

i also got some stacy’s parmesan garlic and herb pita chips! man those things are freaking wonderful….and i got some kettle brand herb cheddar potato chips or something i dunno…but they are good as well….i justhave to have these two snacks in moderation tho…i cant let myself getcrazy with em!

this morning i weighed and was in the 253’s and i dunno how….but i liked it….or it could be the scale playing tricks on me…who knows!

last night when i got back from walmart i still did not have an appetite….so i justate a serving of those pita chips, a serving of the potato chips, and lots of fresh pineapple…..i had to fit 355 more calories in to get to my 1200 calories for the day so i think i still gotunder that buti was fine..i was not hungry at all and im sure ithad something to do with my taco bell and pizza day from the day before! so ya…

right now im eating another serving of pita chips and cantaloupe! im aboutto leave to go to target and get that pink food scale…im so excited….i need to know that my portions are correct when i put my calories in for the day because a lot of times im just guessing when it comes to meats and stuff! alright talk to all of you later…i hope i make some money at work tonight….and then again i hope i getsenthome early too hahah…im horrible….i just really hate my job..eww…ok have a great sunday!

today i woke up at 2:30…had watermelon and whole grain sketti with prego and parm cheese….then i went to work from 5 til 10:30…only made 20 dollars in tips….damn Dominos…ugh! while i was at work i had a ham and cheese sandwich, a red bell pepper, and a package of smartfood popcorn clusters….then as soon as i got home i went straight to the gym…i did 45 minutes on the eliptical….omg it was burnin and i was sweatin….but guess what….my goal was to do 30 minutes because i was tired after work…and i went for 15 minutes longer and guess what kept me going? those pictures i took of myself….i just imagined it all just falling off my body haha! it was nice!!!! I burned 606 calories…..and for 20 of the 45 minutes i was on it i was doing the following:  i would go really super fast for one minute and then slow it down for one minute…and i did that for 20 minutes…..i have been reading in magazines that it really is supposed to help you burn more calories and build your stamina or something…i thought it was fun too haha…weird.

ok so here are my totals for the day SO FAR!!!! I am about to go to walmart and buy a food scale and while im at wal mart im going to get some food…dunno what i want yet because i dont have much of an appetite and i am notcraving anything: anyways here you go:

1 c. whole grain spaghetti (200/1.5/6)-0 saturated fat
1/2 c.prego (90/3/3)-.5 saturated fat
1 tbsp. parmesan cheese (20/1.5/0)-1 saturated fat
1/2 seedless watermelon (172/1.1/2.3)-0 sat. fat
whole red bell pepper (43/.5/3.4)-0 sat. fat
1 pkg. smartfood popcorn clusters in cranberry almond (120/2/5)-0 sat. fat
2 slices whole wheat bread (90/1/5)-0 sat. fat
1 slice 2% milk american cheese (50/2.5/0)-1.5 sat. fat
ham (60/1.5/0)-.5 sat. fat

(845 cal/14.6 fat/24.7 fiber)-3.5 sat. fat

Okay…i will let yall know later what else i eat and what my actual totals are for the night!

have a great sunday!!!

okay…so lately i feel like i can be doing much better at this….and so today when i woke up i looked up how many carbs, fiber, sugars, protein, and all of that kind of stuff that i should be getting per day…i found this information while i was looking that up:

• There are key factors when losing weight. One is your diet. you need to lower your portions, eat slower, eat less calories, fat, and carbs, eat a lot of fiber. Next is exercise to lose weight you must do cardio workouts to burn the fat, sit-ups will do nothing because all sit-ups do is work the muscle if you have excess bodyfat it covers the muscles

• This is my personal opinion, but here goes. If I am not eating ENOUGH carbs, I feel so run down I can barely function. Therefore, I am intelligent enough to listen to my body. When I feel this way, I simply eat a few more carbs per day. I do not induldge in candy bars or chips, I simpley have a small portion of something that has a few carbs, or I may spead my carbs out thoughout the day for better balance.

• You should really be concentrating on the calorie intake when trying to lose weight. The fact is that 1 gram of fat has 9 calories, so you should be lowering these significantly. 20 grams of carbs/day is starvation level; if you set an unattainable goal like that, you will probably end up bingeing on carbs later that day. There are barely 20 grams of carbs in one piece of bread! So start with something reachable like 40-50grams.

• Well if you want to lose weight focus on calories and fat. Every1 is diffenent with how many carbs they should eat so ask your doctor and please try to keep in mind not to lose weight to fast because I did and I recently gaind 20 pounds in 2 months.

• The best way I have found to lose weight and keep it off is to write down everything you eat in one week. Count up the carbs and fats and calories and get a daily average of what your body is use to. Cut all these by 20% the first month then cut 30% the second month then 40% the next month. This way you trick your body. Your body goes into starvation mode if it knows you are cutting back too much on either fat, carbs or calories and you lose weight much slower if at all. SO start off slowing cutting back on all of them. You have to make this a lifestlye change to keep it off. A diet for a month is just that..you may keep it off a month unless you change the way you eat. Right now I am eating about 140 grams of carb a day and 15 grams of fat and approx 1500 calories. I exercise 30 minutes a day walking. You have to move so you do not lose muscle. Any type of movement such as swimming or walking in place even would help. Just remember to go slow and think of this as a lifestyle change and not a fad diet. Also, if you cut back too much on anything at once you lower the chances of sticking to the diet because of the cravings. After I decide how much fat, carbs and calories I am going to have I eat what I want until I have used them up. I drink 8 glasses of water with lemon juice everyday. I am loving it. I am hardly ever hungry and the weight loss is steady. And last but most important, when you figure out your diet(no matter what diet you try)..ask your doctor to make sure its safe for you.

I mean a lot of this information i already knew…but it was still nice to hear it again haha.

Anyways…what i am trying to get at here is that every site i wentto about counting carbs and all that kinda stuff said if you wantto lose weightthere is no pointin counting anything but calories and also if you want to be healthier eliminate trans fats completely and make sure that you dont eat too much saturated fats…based on a 1500 calorie diet you should only be getting 12-17 grams of saturated fats and as far as total fats i should get 42-58 grams!!! so thats what im shooting for from here on out! i am of course going to shoot for less fat and less saturated fat though…but if i get in my range i will be happy too!

okay…so today i have eaten 1/2 of a small seedless watermelon…and right now i have some whole wheat spaghetti boiling which i will be having with some prego and 1 tbsp. of grated parm cheese!

i think that i have found something i could do for the rest of my life yall!!! and that is being a dietician or nutritionist or whatever!

i think it would be so fun to do this as a living…i mean i already know a lot more about this stuff than anyone that i personally know and i have a passion for it….i was going to college to be a food service manager…and i had to take a nutrition class for that degree and i absolutely fell in love with it all…i got almost 100% in the class….i LOVED it….but atthe time i thought to myself…although i love this and could do this as a profession i can’t because people don’t wantto listen to a fat person telling them how to be healthy…ya know? and now im finally in the right mindset!!!! i finally know that i can do this…i am not in a hurry this time…im very patient most of the time…although when i stepped on the scale this morning after that awful day yesterday it said 256.6 and i was devastated but was expecting it after whati ate yesterday so its all good…but anyways….i want to go to school for that!

First, however, i must love myself before i go to college…i have decided that my self doubts are what hold me back in many aspects of my life….if i love myself more i will think i am worth getting an A in every class and applying myself to my work and stuff….first i wantto lose all of this weight and getin shape….i need to get out of this horrible apartment im in and go back to mommys house so i can pay off all of my debts….and then i will go back to college!…i cant wait to get my life back on track and i know that once i love myself i can love others….and others can love me back! yay!

i am so excited aboutthis lifestyle change! yippie!

okay….yall….i took pictures of me today so that i can see my progress as i lose weight because so far i have lost about 20 lbs. and i cant see it!!! so when i was looking at these pictures it was definitely a wake up call! i can not believe how fat i am! i mean really…im sooo seriously going to look at these pictures every time i ever think about going over my calories for the day and hopefully that will be enough motivation to keep me from eating those bad foods!

today i did absolutely horrible!

i started out great…with a salad of romaine, sliced strawberries, blue cheese, and homemade balsamic vinaigrette….then i went to work about 2 or 3 hours later….i had a peach 30 minutes after work…it was JUICY and YUMMY! and then after i was at work for about 3 hours there were 4 pizzas that were messed up….and i ate one slice of cheese pizza from a medium size pizza…..thats only 200 calories and i was soooo hungry so i did notfeel bad about it….but then i left work….i came home….and i was still very hungry and the kitchen is a complete disaster because of the 3 of us who live here im the only one who ever cleans…ever!!!! so…i did not want to have to clean the kitchen in order to make myself something to eat….so i ate 2 pieces of the leftover cheese pizzza from yesterday that my boyfriend brought home from work….those were 280 per slice because they were from a large pizza….UGH!!!!!! and still if i would have just stopped there and had fruits and veggies all night i could have stayed at my 1500 calorie range for the day and would have been just fine but i didn’t stop….later on i went to taco bell and got…not one…but TWO chicken quesadillas!!!! what was i thinking?!?!?! those babies had over 500 calories each!!!! omg! i hate it…not to mention they each had 12 grams of saturated fat which is how much i want to get in a whole day!!!! man o man……horrible horrible day….plus i have these horrible pictures of my body…..which i will allow you all to see…..and im sorry for these images that your eyes are about to see…haha…i look at this body every day….man….

ewwww i have major major major back boobs!!!

And here are my calories for the day……1/4. c. blue cheese (195/16/.9)-6 sat. fat
1/8 c. homemade balsamic vinaigrette (169/18.5/0)-3 sat. fat
3 large romaine leaves chopped (14/.3/1.8)-0 sat. fat
4 jumbo strawberries (35/.3/2.2)-0 sat. fat
peach (38/.3/1.5)-0 sat. fat
1 slice medium cheese pizza from dominos (203/7/1)-3.5 sat. fat
2 slices large cheese pizza from papa johns (560/20/4)-6 sat. fat
2 chicken quesadillas from taco bell (1040/56/6)-24 sat. fat

(2254 cals/118.4 fat/17.4 fiber)-42.5 sat. fat

And i want all of you know that it takes a lot of guts for me to be able to show these pictures to you….i mean…i wear spanx every day…which i dunno if yall are familiar with that…but its like a body smoother thing ….i have some that smooth out my body from my knees to right under my boobs…..it makes me feel ten million times better about myself….but i know its not real….this is me…real me…haha…its ugly….but ive accepted it….my boyfriend helps me accept my body for what it is…every time i look in the mirror and say something negative he says…but its you….and i love you….so ya! i love that about him….i mean yes he wants me to get healthy just as he wants to get more healthy too…..but he accepts me as i am…i love him! anyways……tomorow im going to do great…….i have some energy from all that food i ate and i think im going to go do the dishes now and clean up the kitchen so i can make me some food tomorow in a clean kitchen…that always makes me more motivated to make my own food and not want panera bread or roly poly since its healthier fats food than most places…anyways….see you all tomorow…

Hey yall….well first when i stepped on the scale today itsaid 256.3 and i was like dang it thats sad…then i had my morning pee haha….then i gotback on and it said 254.4….and i was like noooo that cant be right…so then i got back on and it said 255.5….ugh!!!! so i brought it in my kitchen and it said a bunch of different things too so i said well im gonna give this scale a break and come back and weigh myself…….

so i let the scale take a break…and went back to weigh myself and it said 255.4……….and to make sure that was right i moved it and weighed again and it said the same thing….so im pretty sure thats as accurate as its gettin!!!

Last week i weighed in at 258.?? i dont remember what was after the decimal…..but anyways….thats about another 3 pounds lost! so yay for me im so happy!

i swear…it almost seems easy this time around compared to what i was doing before…i dont get it….its like i keep thinking to myself…what the hell have you been waiting for all your life? why couldnt you keep this up a long time ago? geesh its ridiculous!

so does anybody watch so you think you can dance? i freaking love that show and i like to see how athletic the girls are…their bodies are soo beautiful…i want to have such a toned body like that….i just love to watch people dance though its my favorite!

also…my opinion of the biggest loser….well…yesterday i saw that oprah was having past biggest loser contestants on her show and thought yay….i getto hearabout this stuff…however…it wasnt a new episode it was from 2008…so i was sad but i watched anyways….and i think it was the first person who became the biggest loser gained all their weight back because “life” happened to them….this is the only thing i do not like about the bigeest loser….anyone can lose weight being on the ranch….its simple….they take away all of the temptations and when they do put the temptations in there as a game they know its a game and theres millions of people watching and they dont wanna pig out with all those people watching them so they will fight it off….anyways….when they get home….there are no more cameras…its back to regular life…where food is a constant battle and exercising is a constant struggle….they are going to be discouraged when they gain a few pounds back and then cant lose them as fast as they did on the ranch because they dont have the time to work out for 6 hours a day……….yes i know that jillian says they do the show to extremes so that people have no more excuses….so people cant say “thats impossible” she wants everyone to know it is possible if you really work hard….i get all of that….but also…the reason the guy that was named biggest loser gained weight back is because he said they didn’t fix what was on the inside of him….just the outside….and he was a fat person stuck in a skinny persons body….that makes perfect sense…now i dontcare about everything i just said….i will still be watching season after season because i absolutely love it………hahahaha….im ridiculous!

i really would like to start eating organic and using organic beauty products and stuff….but i looked at the prices of just organic deodorant and lotions and stuff and it was outrageous!!!! i dont get it!!!! everything that is supposed to help us and make us healthy has a raised price on it! i hate that! now i know for sure that i will not be able to afford organic beauty supplies but i have been picking outorganic fruits and veggies when i can at the store….but there aren’t many choices here in evansville, indiana…so…ya….im doing whati can…and i know one day after i go back to school and such that i will be able to get a great job and i will be able to afford organics….but until then i will continue to kill myself with nonorganics because i have no other ways of affording it.

welp…..thats all folks! i will be letting yall know what i ate today later on after work…ewwww…work…i hate it!

bye bye!

-arli

yall i went to work today and was sent home after 3 hours and only made 16 dollars…omg!!!! i am soo broke it is ridiculous…i seriously dont think im going to be able to afford anymore groceries…i am going to eat everything in the house before getting more food…and i mean everything…cuz i have no money at all!

PLUS..my boyfriend who is a tattoo artist who usually will bring home about 40 in tips and a weekly paycheck of around 300 just got fired today…because his shop found out that he has a secured spot at a new tattoo shop that is about to open up…so they fired him…but that new tattoo shop may not be open for another two weeks…omg! thats not good you guys! we are both broke now yikes!!!!

ok well anyways…here is what i ate today

1 c. whole grain spaghetti (200/1.5/6)-0 saturated fat
1/2 c.prego (90/3/3)-.5 saturated fat
1 tbsp. parmesan cheese (20/1.5/0)-1 saturated fat
2 slices whole wheat bread (90/1/5)-0 saturated fat
2 tbsp. peanut butter (190/17/2)-3.5 saturated fat
1/2 banana (36/.1/1.1)-0 saturated fat
2 slice cheese pizza (280/10/2)-6 saturated fat
1 peach (38/.3/1.5)-0 saturated fat
5 jumbo strawberries (43/.4/2.7)-0 saturated fat
1 whole red bell pepper (43/.5/3.4)-0 saturated fat

(1310 cals/45.3 fat/28.7 fiber)-11 saturated fat

I have decided to keep track of my saturated fat amounts…I wantto shoot for 10-15 per day for now and slowly lower that number during my weight loss journey…

And yes I know I ate 2 slices of cheese pizza….poopy….but i fit it into my day pretty well and i actually dontfeel bad about it this time because i still got some whole grains, fruits, veggies, and nuts in today and so that makes me pretty happy!!!  The only thing I am missing is lean protein…whatcha gonna do? Plus look at all that fiber!!! yay!

I went to the gym and did 30 minutes on the treadmill….i went to a 5 incline which is a first for me and did 10 minutes at 3.5 speed….then for 15 minutes i did 3.2 speed at 3 incline….then for the last 5 minutes i did 3.5 speed at 5 incline again……THEN I got on the eliptical and did 16 minutes………..I worked out for 46 minutes total and I burned 530 calories!!! cool yall!

tomorow i weigh in….eeek!!!

this morning i weighed in at 255.5 so we will see if that sticks….im not counting on it because of my cheese pizza and my period!!! so…i wont be devastated if i do not make my goal which is to be under 256….but if i do….i am gonna be one happy girl i tell ya!!!

ill talk to yall tomorow morning…hopefully i will have some good news about my weigh in!!!

so i just have a silly story to tell you…last night my boyfriend went to bed at about 2″30 and i went to bed at about 4 (in the morn) okay so he had already been asleep for a bit when i went in the bedroom….when i walked in he started talking and he said “you know how you will be half done…..and then those things on like mechanical pencils ya know?” and i said honey what are you talking about and he said “i dont know but i like it!!!” and he went right back to sleep in seconds…snoring real loud hahha!!!! i wanted to laugh really hard but didnt want to wake him…..man o man….the simple things in life.

i am awake way too early today because there is this guy hammering his shed outside my window…i have mentioned this in previous blogs…about how it keep me awake and stuff….well that guy finished his shed…NOW theres another guy a few houses down doing the same thing!!! im sooo mad!!! but i dont hear it right now soi think i will go back to sleep soon cuz im real tired still…..

when i woke up i had a peanut butter and banana sandwich and a glass of lemon water…tasty tasty!!!

okay i am going to read a few more blogs and go back to sleep soon!!!

grr i dont want to go to work tonight….

welp its the end of another day on this weight loss journey….man o man…i swear every single day is a struggle…some days are a piece of cake and some days are down right ridiculously difficult!!!!

today was a pretty easy one for some reason…i feel very satisfied atthe moment

here are my totals:

buffalo slim wrap (558/11.4/7.8)
smart food popcorn clusters (120/2/5)
peach (38/.3/1.5)
banana (90/.3/2.6)
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balsamic vinaigrette recipe
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(20/0/0) 1/4 c. balsamic vinegar
(960/112/0) 1/2 c. extra virgin olive oil
(10/0/0) 2 tbsp. grey poupon
(23/0/0) 1 tsp. sugar
totals = (1013/112/0)
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1/4 cup balsamic vinaigrette (337/37/0)
4 jumbo strawberries (35/.3/2.2)
1/3 cup blue cheese (220/18/1)
3 cups romaine lettuce (14/.3/1.8)

(1412 calories/69.6 fat/21.9 fiber) totals!!!

 also, i worked out today…i actually got 46 minutes in on the elliptical…i cant freakin believe it and i burned over 500 calories…i dont remember the exact number but it was over 500 i know for sure….i am very happy with this accomplishment because up until today i “thought” i couldnt go for over 15 minutes on the thing at a time….so for me to add 30 minutes to that meant a lot to me!!!  im movin up yall!!!!  but not in weight….cuz guess what?  today i weighed in at 255.9…YAY!!!! that means i need to lose 6 pounds to go to holiday world and splashin safari and have a good time! i can not freakin wait….and i really really really cant wait to reach my mini goal!!! im gonna get it in no time! i feel untouchable yall! yeehaw!!!

okay…i came to the conclusion that i just plain like blogging a little too much…it might be my new addiction…which is okay because it has replaced food sort of so ya….anywho!!!

I just got back from a trip to target….its really dangerous for me to go to target i tell ya…i always come back with way too much stuff….but ya i got my checks cashed today and had a little extra money….i got a new pair of pants to work out in…not sweat pants….they are tight on me and sort of slick…i absolutely love them because i feel like extra fabric in between my legs slows me down…its amazing how much of a difference it makes to have proper workout pants.

i also bought womens helath magazine and fitness magazine…i love to read magazines a lot!!!

i also bought these smartfood popcorn clusters in cranberry almond…each package contains 120 cals/2 g fat/5 g fiber…which is amazing for a snack to have that much fiber and that little fat and calories….its probably going to be my new favorite snack….they also have them in honey flavor so i bet those r delicious too!

welp i am off to the gym….the only other thing i have had to eat today was the other half of my buffalo slim wrap and one of these popcorn cluster smartfood thingies!!!

ok im gonna work up a sweat yall….see you when i get back!