arli

OKay!!! So I just got off work at 9 o clock…that is a 10.5 hour day and it is because we had heavy rain today….I had 18 deliveries to take…and was expecting to make about 60 in tips…considering I get 1 dollar for every delivery from the store…BUT instead I counted my money down at the end of the night and it only came to 24 dollars that I made…so I either gave someone too much money back or I dropped my money somewhere.  I am very very very upset needless to say…and I cheated today too….I had one of our oven baked sandwiches and a few bites of pasta!!!! That is not good!!!!  It definitely doesn’t help that my day sucked so bad after I cheated…I think it was a sign!!! HAH I was being punished for cheating….O well….Tomorow is another day.  I am not a perfect person…GRRR!!!!  I wish I was sometimes though….Well I am going to see the new Wolverine movie tonight…the midnight showing….I am excited…I am too tired to do my calorie counting on here tonight….But I probably will tomorow…O ya and I weighed tonight when I got home after eating that sandwich and I weighed in at 267.5 which means from the beginning I weighed 274 so I have lost 6.5 pounds….right?  I think thats right…but that made me feel better to look at the scale and see that after cheating…..welp talk to yall soon!!!

-arli

Okay…so I just got off work at 6:30.  We were extremely slow today and I only had 7 deliveries all day which is horrible…so I ate when I got bored…But…I ate allll good things…nothing was bad at all

So here is what I have eaten so far today:

3 cups asorted melon (watermelon (46 cals. 0 fat 1 fiber), cantaloupe (60 cals. 0 fat 2 fiber), honeydew (64 cals. 0 fat 1 fiber))

6 eight ounce glasses of water (0 everything)

jello cup with fruit in it (100 cals. 0 fat 1 fiber)

weight watcher brand english muffin (100 cals. .5 fat 5 fiber) with weight watcher cream cheese (60 cals. 5 fat 3 fiber) (2 points)

2 light string cheeses (100 cals. 5 fat 0 fiber)

1 c. cherry tomatoes (15 cals. 0 fat 0 fiber)

ham (70 cals. 3 fat 0 fiber) on whole wheat bread (110 cals. 1 fat 3 fiber)

1 c. blackberries (62 cals. 1 fat, 8 fiber)

carrots (30 cals. 0 fat 2 fiber) and celery sticks (16 cals. 0 fat 2 fiber) with light ranch (40 cals.  0 fat 0 fiber) mixed with hot sauce (10 cals.  0 fat 0 fiber)

1 can campbells select harvest italian vegetable soup (100 cals. 0 fat 8 fiber)

983 cals 36 fiber 14.5 fat

So that is what I have done so far today and I have to say it is the best I have done so far because I got a lot of fruit and veggies in and some whole grains plus I have so far gotten 6 of my 8 servings of water in.  And lets not forget that I got all of my suggested fiber in for the day which I am very proud of!!!  YAY!!!!!  I must say I still want to go to taco bell for a chicken quesadilla and I really hope that urge goes away soon because I do not know how much longer I can put off the urge!!!  I am trying really hard….

I will write later to tell you what else I eat for the day and stuff!!!

Well…I woke up at 7 this morning to have my morning pee and usually I can go right back to sleep but all I could think about is this diet and how much I am motivated to do good today…I really hope that this motivation sticks with me all day because if it does I am going to do really good.  I plan on definitely exercising when I get off work today and I plan on reaching my water drinking goal today too…which is 8 8 oz. servings of water…I will let you all know how I have done when I get off work today!!!  Wish me luck!!!

-Grande passion lemonade tea from Starbucks

-Low fat blueberry muffin from Starbucks

-1 1/2 cups penne tossed with 1/3 cups marinara sauce and diced tomatoes, onions, and green peppers, topped with 1/2 cup shredded provolone cheese

-peach jello cup with fruit

-weight watchers cookies and cream bar

-banana split italian ice bar

-weight watchers 3 cheese ziti marinara

-tomato basil wrap with lettuce, celery, carrots, light ranch, and 1/4 cup cheddar cheese

-campbells select harvest italian vegetable soup with a handful of crackers

-carrot and celery sticks with light ranch and buffalo hot sauce

Yes, I know that is a lot of food, however it is all healthy food, which means I am off to a great start.  Usually I would eat that much food but all of it was unhealthy.  The only thing I am not so proud of myself for eating is the pasta, but that is as healthy as it gets at Dominos Pizza.

I hope to get these food lists shorter and full of fruits veggies and whole wheat foods…it is going to be hard.  I am also going to start tracking how much water I drink so I can go for my 8 8 oz. servings goal.  Fiber is something else I am going to start tracking and my total calories.  I will try to fit all of that record keeping into my busy day at work.

Okay…so let me start off by saying I weigh 270 lbs.  This is the most I’ve ever weighed in my whole life.  I am only 22 years old and I don’t want to constantly be obese until I am 40…weighing even more than I am now and then realize it is time to lose weight.  I want to lose weight when I am young and I still have beautiful skin and hair and everything else.  I want to enjoy being a young beautiful woman and at 270 lbs. I don’t feel confident and I definitely don’t feel beautiful.

So, my aha! moment happened when I went to get a papsmear and they weighed me and I weighed 274 pounds, which I forgot to mention I started my diet last week and I have lost 4 lbs.  Anywho, prior to getting weighed for my papsmear it had been probably 3 months since I weighed last.  I have a scale, but I was just terrified to get on it because I did not want to know how much I weighed.  So 3 months ago I weighed 20 pounds less.  I managed to gain 20 pounds in 3 months and if I didn’t change anything about the way I was eating that number was just going to continue to grow.  before you know it I was going to weigh 300 pounds and then 330 and so on.  I always told myself that 250 is absolutely the most I will allow myself to weigh before I start changing my lifestyle and here I am 20 pounds more than that.  So it is definitely time to do this for sure this time.

I do have to say that it is going to be extremely difficult to lose this weight.  My goal is to weigh 160 or less and I know I can do it but for some reason every day I have temptation looking me in the face, because I work at Dominos Pizza and almost everyday even when I bring a healthy lunch I cheat on my diet.  Pizza is one of my favorite things in the world, along with pasta, which we just began serving.  I mean bread, cheese, and pasta are my favorite foods and I look at it everyday.  It is so hard, but I just have to focus on why I want to lose weight. 

Reasons why I want to lose weight:

1.To be able to buy clothes from any normal clothing store and not have to go to the plus size section.

2.To feel better about myself.

3.To look good in a bathing suit.

4.To feel more confident about myself so I can achieve goals and present myself in a positive way to everyone I meet.

5. To live longer and be healthier.

6.To feel more sexy so I can be more adventurous in the bedroom.

7.To be able to pass on my knowledge to my children when I do decide to have children so they won’t be obese like I was as a child.

8.To be able to turn heads when I walk in the room.  Haha…

9.To just plain be happy!!!!!

Okay…so once I think about all of those things I start to compare the negatives to eating a chicken quesadilla at Taco Bell to the positives of not eating it.  The positives are of course that I will eventually reach the above goals and the negatives being that its just another obstacle in my way to reaching my goal.  Then that chicken quesadilla doesn’t sound as good as I thought it did.  By the way I went through the drive thru at Taco Bell and when it was my turn to order I sped away because I built up enough will power to just say no!  I was very proud of myself for that.  I think I need to put pictures of people who I want to look like and post it notes saying positive things about losing weight all over my car so that when I am at work I can constantly look at those as reminders for why I am depriving myself of all these yummy foods.

Ok, starting tomorow I need to start working out for 30 minuts or more..twice a week for now.  I plan on working out when I get off work tomorow and then also working out on Saturday.  I just need to start off making small exercise goals because when I make them too big and don’t achieve them I feel discouraged and usually don’t continue with my goals…so I am starting off small.

Okay, I think I have said enough for my first blog.  I will post again tomorow.  -Arli